Please do not tell me I wouldn't know what it feels like

Please do not tell me I wouldn’t know what it feels like

I know what it’s like to doubt yourself, because other people doubt you

It doesn’t matter how happy you are with yourself
If enough people shout things at you, you start to wonder if they’re right

Please do not tell me I wouldn’t know what it feels like

Because I was afraid
I know what it’s like to eat all a whole bottle of pills
To have my stomach pumped the day before 8th grade started

Please do not tell me I wouldn’t know what it feels like

I hated St. Anthony’s hospital
They talked far more about my body
Than they did my issues

Please do not tell me I wouldn’t know what it feels like

I used to wake up at 5:30am to watch Sailor Moon
Then I watched Bananas in Pajamas, back to bed I went
It was the awesome part of my day

Please do not tell me I wouldn’t know what it feels like

I told my shrink about Sailor Moon
In my excitement I may have forgotten to mention it was an anime
Mom came home with wine after the shrink meeting

Please do not tell me I wouldn’t know what it feels like

I have far more respect for the stop sign
I made sure my son does too
I’ve run one with a bike, cars hurt when they hit you

Please do not tell me I wouldn’t know what it feels like

I’ve had a popular boy tell me he would make me a woman
And people would stop talking about me
He didn’t like my response

Please do not tell me I wouldn’t know what it feels like

I know what it’s like to have people spit in your face
Call you very unoriginal names
Just because what they thought what they heard was the truth

Please do not tell me I wouldn’t know what it feels like

I got called a cunt in marching band practice because I shaved off my hair
When I asked my mom about it, grounded for two weeks
I looked it up in the dictionary afterwards, should have looked it up first

Please do not tell me I wouldn’t know what it feels like

I’ve learned more about love, respect, and acceptance
From working the medieval fair
And to swoon over men who wear kilts

Please do not tell me I wouldn’t know what it feels like

I got an ego boost from a Cuban man on my band trip, he flirted with me
He gave me a ride on an atv on the beach and told me about his mother
I got a long lecture from the assistant band director about strangers

Please do not tell me I wouldn’t know what it feels like

I took my concerns to the vice principle
I was told to act like a girl and get a boyfriend
I was informed it wasn’t his concern

Please do not tell me I wouldn’t know what it feels like

I had and still have a handful of very wonderful friends
I didn’t want to bother them with my pain and confusion
I didn’t want to appear to be weak

Please do not tell me I wouldn’t know what it feels like

If they had a gay straight alliance at my school
I would have been there with bells on
I don’t like to see people suffer

Please do not tell me I wouldn’t know what it feels like

I almost dumped my boyfriend after 3 days
People told me it was good that I was trying to hide that I am a lesbian whore
I can’t believe I let their doubt and lies eat me for 3 days

Please do not tell me I wouldn’t know what it feels like

We talked a lot
He accepted, respected, and loved me
He didn’t want to change me

Please do not tell me I wouldn’t know what it feels like

I went to prom
I got my hair done, wore a dress, high heels too
I felt pretty inside my own head for once

Please do not tell me I wouldn’t know what it feels like

He has the most gorgeous light brown eyes
So does our 9 year old son
My child is kind, healthy and happy

Please do not tell me I wouldn’t know what it feels like
All I heard was gay, lesbian, whore, or go get a boyfriend
I didn’t feel like I belonged in any of those
Nobody talked about another choice

Please do not tell me I wouldn't know what it feels like
I am accepted for who I am
I am respected for who I am
He doesn't care if I have a crush on Sean Connery and Queen Latifah