Thursday, March 28, 2013

Out of touch with Montana, yet again

As someone who was in Helena, Montana on Monday March 25th for the rally for Medicaid expansion and spoke for the bill, I am highly disgusted that House Bill 590 was shot down on party lines.
HB 590 would have affected my life in four good ways. I would have had health insurance, my husband and son still would have had Medicaid, my husband's spend down would have disappeared, and I could have gone back to work.
Idiots killed the bill based on the thought that somebody making $15,000 should be able to make $700 a month insurance payments. That would leave us with $552 a year to live on. I was very upset last night. I had hopes of returning to work. It is just not possible.
I can't afford the 20% Medicare does not cover. I wouldn't be able to afford $52, 580 which is 20% of the cost of the kidney transplant that Jerramie needs. The transplant center would want that in advance. If I went back to work without Medicaid expansion everything I made and more would go to my husband's medical. There would be nothing left to go to basic living needs for a family of three. And of course I wouldn't qualify for any extra help with any of this due to my working income. So somebody else tell me to get a job, yeah that'll help.

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Depressed and Lazy don't go together

Sometimes I get the blues. I get fustrated. I hate not working. I do a lot of volunteering to take my mind off the situation for a bit. It helps most of the time. I like to be busy. I enjoy helping others. I feel positive and passionate about several subjects, which I'm pretty vocal about. LGBT rights and equality, domestic violence, equality for women, education funding, medicaid expansion, voter's rights, David Bowie. *snicker* Most of you should have expected David Bowie to pop up. I believe in the public option for health care, but I'll take and fight for medicaid expansion. For Montana medicaid we have a spend down of $101.00. That means anything we earn over $645.00 I have to write a check to Montana medicaid and they pay for Jerramie for that month. Jerramie's 20% of dialysis is $22,000 a year. That's what I made in a year. That wouldn't count doctor appointments, blood tests, stress tests, surgeries, medical procedures, ambulance rides, ER visits in the middle of the night, and medication. Medication alone would kill me. His Renvela is $2,000 a month. He needs it as none of the other binders will work and he has to take it 4-5 times a day. Want to see someones veins turn to bone, neither do I. Medicaid is basically covering the $20,000 a month that I couldn't cover even if I worked. I am grateful that I can pay $101 and they'll cover the expenses that medicare doesn't cover, and that Shane has medicaid. It aggrieves me that I haven't had health insurance in three years. Keep in mind that all of this occurred before "Obamacare" went into effect, therefore Jerramie was denied being on my insurance at work, therefore I had to quit so he would qualify for medicaid so he could have surgery less than a month
later for dialysis. He started renal failure with ICU, it was caught late despite being taken the doctor several times and being told nothing was wrong. At $746 we make too much for medicaid and not enough to afford medical coverage for me. It aggravates me that in order for people in my house to stay covered, I can't work. If I work I would have to hand them my entire paycheck and the $101 from Jerramie's social security as well. Shane would lose his medicaid, food stamps, section 8, and we would still only have $645 to survive on. The first year and an half after I paid rent, I only had enough for the power bill. It took a year and an half to get section 8. I am very, very grateful to have rental assistance and food stamps. I'm glad that we did not have to uproot my child during a time when so much was changing and he needed all the stability we could provide. Without these we would be homeless. Shane wouldn't be. He'd live with one of his grandmas. It would kill me to be away from my son. I would do anything for Shane. Pride has nothing to do it. Your job as a parent is to make sure your child has a home, food, clothing, healthy, 
and feels secure. It bothers me a great deal that I am unable to provide for my family without harming them. How's that for a head trip? I won't divorce Jerramie just so I can work. If I did he would be screwed over. Three people in the household is the magical number for the services that Shane and Jerramie need for the amount we make. Two people in the household would raise his spend down, lower his food stamps, and the child support check would over qualify him for it all. I've thought and researched it both ways. I'm trapped in a cycle of forced poverty. Poor to keep my husband alive. If they bring the work requirement back, I will have to at the least be legally separated, move out, and get a job; either way Jerramie would be screwed. My hope is for medicaid expansion. Raise the amount for eligibility, let Jerramie qualify without a spend down, let me go to work and keep my marriage and family whole without harm. Let me pay taxes and have my self worth back. For the people who argued against the public option and currently against medicaid expansion; I ask this of you, what harm have I done to you?

Monday, November 12, 2012

8 month results

On March 12 my body fat was 75.1%, weight was 301 lbs, BMI 56.59, bra was a 46 M cup, wore a size 32. 8 months later body fat is 60.3% (14.8% down), weight is 293.7lbs (7.3lbs down), BMI is 55.49 (1.1 down), and my bra is a 43 G (dropped 6 cups...squeeee!), down to a size 28 (2 down). I perfer weight lifting (can't wait til doctor releases me), walking, lap swimming, water zumba (I get to start again tomorrow!), modified yoga (otherwise can't get off of floor lol). I have learned that if I don't log what I eat, I do not lose percentages or weight that week. I get more excited now about inches lost than weight lost. If I get too excited and weight lift more than I should I hurt my back (twice lol). So we're going slow and steady, because I want to keep this off and stay healthy.

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Mom you should really put down that book said the boy who is laying down next to me reading

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Me: I want a kitten. Jerramie: No. Me: I want a baby. Jerramie: Maybe on the kitten Me: ^_^~~> #WeNeedAPetInThisHouseNextSpring

Friday, November 9, 2012

Light Duty

Got released to light duty exercise by doctor (darn you back). So we get to start all over again. Starting walking on treadmill (too much snow at the moment for outside walking lol), lap swimming at the Y, and modified yoga. We'll give that two weeks and see how it feels. Rushing into things is how I keep hurting myself, so let's try slow lol.

Sunday, October 28, 2012

Slut shaming

I am not into slut shaming in any way, shape, or form. A person's sexuality or lack thereof is not for you judge, not for your entertainment, or to make you a more "moral" person.